ReMeMbEr

When there is a problem between friends, we talked about it cause most issues arises from lack of communication which could lead to misunderstanding and misinterpretation. Sometimes, more talk results in further complication version of the problem, it's just the same as when a virus gets immune to it's cure.

Let's say I happen to be the unlucky person that has to through that phase of life. But this virus didn't stop there, Oh no, it didn't want to let me go so easily. It wants to hit me so hard till I'm down on my knees begging for mercy. So this virus spread into backstabbing, untrue stories and involvement of a 3rd party. Ugly right? I know. When you're in anger, you tend to say things that you didn't mean to say right? As an example, earlier today at the pump station, this cashier didn't want to accept my money because it's wet. WTF right?! I got angry and snapped at him and went off. I regretted and embarrassed with my reaction to it. I felt so badddd. I went back to him and said sorry. shrugsss. Hopefully he'll forgive me! So anyways, I tried to save this so called friendship but I failed. Probably I didn't try hard enough but there is no degree of how hard or how easy you try right? I mean, there is no degree to a severity when somebody cheats on her/his partner right? light or heavy it is still considered as cheating.

I have to admit, I am pretty bumped by the fact that I lost the battle. It didn't even let me have a good closure. I'm not gonna point fingers. I'm not gonna argue. I wish I can say this but I only said "remember", couldn't finish saying it cause too malas to drown myself. So I'm taking this chance to finish what I wanted to say.............................

"Remember"

Not to remember me. I mean, of course I'll get hurt if I see you around and you didn't even smile because you've forgotten me."ouch!!" but I don't really mind that.

I might be all vivid and tainted in your eyes or maybe I'm just a dream or two by now. You said you can replace me easily. So I guess you'll be okay without me then.

All I'm hoping for is that you will remember the lessons that you had obtained through the whole period of our friendship. Use it wisely and hopefully it'll be a good use in your life :)

I forgive you for being cold and all that and I hope you'll forgive me too for all my mistakes. But if you don't want to it's okay. One day, I hope you will.

Fotress of Solitude

Fotress of Solitude

When life gets tangled up with too many conflicts with people, I tend to get so miserable. Hey, who doesn't right? Especially when it gets out of your hand, unreachable to control it any longer, and your mind gets sooooo messed up, that's the worst scenario that can ever happen. Oh right, not to forget the sleepless nights that you'll have and people would prolly not want to talk to you cause of your zombie/vampire looking face. The best immediate action that I would do is to sit down and think what the hell is going on. After that, I'll get up and take at least one step back from the whole mess, of course, I would prefer to take more than once obviously. Dengar mcm senang je kan? ambik satu langkah ke belakang. hahaha sounds funny. Yeah, it is easy but it will need a lot of courage to do that.

"The further you're away from trouble the better it is"

However, when I do that a lot, by all means I have the tendency to be away from the crowdlakan. In other words, alone. Ask yourself, "do you spend time alone?". Most of my friends said "No. It's like no life bro!!" As for me, you need time for yourself. You see, most of the time you're overwhelmed with your work, studies or things that dominate most of your time in life. So there will be at a point in life where you just need to stray away just a little bit to pull yourself back together and stabilize yourself. I believe that giving time for yourself is the answer that I could think of for that.

This is what I do for myself. read books.

Besides, I think that being alone is somehow related with the process of adulthood. Your family and friends can't and won't be there for you all the time. It is what adult is all about. I think. Nevertheless, giving yourself too much time pun tak bagus jugak. So you gotta manage between the both of them. Life is all about balance. The Yin & Yang. Try it. You'll be surprise with the result.

week...End

You have no idea how grumpy I was in the car but it ended right after when my dad hand me over the money for the weekend. Peace :D.Kaching $$$. I smell money coming in!! after that, I balik den continue with my beauty sleep. Simply woke up whatever time I want. Mandi ke tak. Makan ke tak. Clean up the room ke tak. Nobody cares. Who cares? I don't. hahahaha such a good time!!

Practically, It's just me, with my bed, and the house.......... well yeah....... lets exclude the maid to not spoil the whole story. So anyways, my besties decided to go for club hopping at Jalan Changkat that night. Since I've never been there so what the heck. Clubbing shall I go!

Love the dance floor

Honestly, at first I didn't feel like clubbing at all that night though. Don't know why. Just felt like staying at home in my warm blanket while reading books. Reluctantly I got up, showered, switched on my webcam with Miza since she decided to be my outfit advisor for the night. Tried on a few shirts and had dilemma between the purple and maroon. Finally I decided to go with the purple. I nearly doze off while waiting for them to pick me up lol. Punyala mengantok.Padahal tak buat pape pun satu hari hahaha

In the car, they asked me why I looked so tired and sleepy. I tried so hard to think what to answer them cause actually I didn't do anything at all for the entire day!! Had a pit stop at 7/11 and bought myself redbull while mineral water for the ladies. Getting into KL is sooo fucked tup. Especially at BB. Reminds me whyyyyyyyy i hate driving at KL and explains why I don't know shit the ways in KL hahahaha.

We went to MV. I was soooooooo impressed by the place. Not huge, not big, not fancy nor blinggy but the crowd.... fuuuh hot chix all around babeee.. And they are all adults, not those kids who goes to places like M.O.S or Heritage, no offence. I nearly tried alcohol at that time but amazingly I didn't. I'm so proud of my will power :) I had so much fun dancingggg especially when there were girls bumming their asses behind me hohohohoho prolly sempit kot, wish they were actually trying to flirt with me ;p and the song selection were good. Sampai rumah at 4am. Terus pengsan right after I hold my pillows.

Aiman and Hers... forever (the "gatal's kazen")

Woke up at 2.oopm today. Received few calls and texts, invitation to go out but I kindly rejected em. I just feel like staying at home :D So I did. Their flight at 11.00pm so I should make my move at 10.30pm but before that, I'll be at Centre Point chilling with friends. That sums my weekend pretty much. I danced, had fun, read books, sleep a lot, eat less, and stayed at home more.

What about yours?

be..NiCE

BE NICE

I'm happy. Ecstatic. Excited.

Why?

Because what I believed in or should I say, my principles of life bare me fruits finally. Have you ever wonder why we live in a cruel world? one possible answer could be, because people never learn to start being nice first and see no point doing so when ownself not being treated right. Some people believe in karma, what comes around goes around. Do you actually believe that whatever bad things that you do will get back at you later in life? Maybe, possibly, probably but I don't think so, it could occur in the after-life too you know.

As for me,


I believe that being nice is not a waste of money, energy and time. I mean, what do you have to lose by doing so? Unless you do it with the hope of getting something back in returnlah. Punyalah tak ikhlas. Anyhow, I'm not trying to say that I'm an Angel, poyo sungguh but I mean, I try to be nice as much as possiblelah, I try to be polite as I could and I try my best not to use the word "hate" at all. It's such a strong word. If you do use it against people, your friends, family, anyone, I advise you to stop. You don't use it on people who don't deserve it. Again, being nice doesn't mean your life will be all thathappie mappie like the kids favourite dinasour toon Barney & friends, sometimes I do have people walk all over me. Naah, I couldn't be bothered to complain about it because I know HE is watching and I know what I'm doing is far greater than what I have to sacrifice. No pain no gain right ?I honestly think that the world needs more people with that kind of mentality. Be nice, polite, gentle,respectful. To care about each other.

I don't know what I'm talking about! but all I can say is, just be nicelah. It's something that you MUST have in you

BLAMe

BLAME

I used to be a child that blames others at every single thing that went wrong in life. Not getting good grades in exams, blame teacher for setting the paper too difficult. Not good in badminton, blame the coach for being sooo bad at teaching. Not close to friends and family,blame the internet. Not being able to buy some stuff, blame the dad. Fell in the drain, blame the authorities for their recklessness GOSH!! Damn, emo rite? hahaha but now when I think about it kan, "blame"is a really bad bad bad word. Not in the meaning of an insult but as for an excuse to run away. Usually people would blame somebody or something else for their mistakes, just to prove others that they are innocent and for the sake of making themselves feel much better from the whole situation. In other words, being in denial.

Lets take an examplelah ok. Why people blame parents when they come across a very rude or indecent person? Nampak je perempuan merokok "ishh... mak ayah dia tak kesah ke?" apa2 jela yang people trash talk, parents would be the first person to be blamed. It could be true. Since they are the people who's responsible in shaping their children's inner self. Couldn't agree more about that. But can you just simply put it that way? Can you?

As for me, I can't. I think that no matter how rude or indecent or disrespectable that person can be, it's no one's fault but them. No one else but themselves. Because, whatever actions that you do, it's your call. No one else. The outcome of your decisions is for you to deal with. Not anyone else. I'm not saying that people should NEVERblame on others but It would be nice if everybody can consider inlooking within themselves first before happily pointing fingers on others. That's all. What do you think John's Deciphers? What say you

Place in MY HEART

Aishh penatnye saya. I just finish typing out a draft copy of a tenancy agreement for my mom. She actually force me to type out a freaking 3 pages long of bosaness( tenant,landlord,blabla) sungguh bosan I'm telling you. I malas delay my work so I kinda habiskan already. Thank God.

I was suppose to go out with Farhan today but dunno what happenlah. Prolly he is not feeling very well since he texted me yday his feeling a bit feverish. It's the weather I'm telling you. Hot and Hazy. The best combination of disaster to health. From what I heard, It'll go on for 3 months. So brace yourself Malaysians! Drink more H20 water :)

Today, I went for branch with my bestest buddies Hanis & Syahida at 12.30pmish (branchla sangat) Punyala malas all of us to bangun. I bangun pun cause my maid wanted to mop and vacuum my room.

Future Dentist

We ate at dunno whats the place called already at 1utama. Pretty goodlah. I ate pasta and it cost me only for Rm8.99. Cheap right? I know...! I thought I should spend my money wisely for today since I bought myself this so hot Koreanish bag from SEED and Aliph loves it a lot. Nasib dia tak beli sama lol, but actually he wants it too at the end he didnt. Such a prideful child :p 

Future Security Software Analyst

Moving on, after branch I went to pick clothes from the Laundry shop. Since most of Zara's goods kena dry clean so dengan malasnye had to send them to the Laundry shop. It costs me a total of Rm 100 ok! blardy hell mahal kot. I sed to the owner of the shop "pandai tol you buat business eh auntie lol" it's ok. I bet she wouldnt dare say anything bad.

Jeremy Quah, Caryn Koh, Edhuan Ismail

After that, I pegi amik Sleng then met WyJin at Taman Mayang field. FYI 5 years ago, WyJin and I carved our names on a tree at the field. I know it's wrong but I dunno wth I was thinking at that timelah. Simply sedap hati je vandalise the tree hahaha. Surprisingly it's still there!! It's been like......... 5 yearsss 5 years already and I still remember vividly on that day. Time really flies huh.

Future Psychologyst 

I hate goodbyes. I'm bad at it. So I hate it. It's been good meeting the both of them again. They were like my pillars of strength back then in highschool and still standing strong :) Although all of us follows our own different paths or roads but we always attempt to reach for each other regardless what shithole we're in. I love u guys and you will always always have a place in my heart.

Are You?

Things do not stay the way it is. Nothing is. As time goes, slowly people change.

In what sense? Anything, appearance, habits, the way they speak, attitude wise and etc.

Great alteration will result in immense change.

We choose the people that we want to be friends with. If they change, would they still be “that” friend worth spending our time with? So basically what can I say here is nothing last forever right? But why is there such thing as Friends Forever? Eternal Love? Maybe we can say that when only the “change” does not occur, but can we avoid it? It is apart of life after all.

Here I am blogging about friends of mine which already changed till I don’t feel comfortable to be with them while neglecting the fact that I my