This is the perfect moment of my life. I have lots of assignment that I need to put attention to. I'm having issues with my best friend. I could not get devoted concentration from my love. My parents being a control freak more than the usual. My life is in a mess. What word could precisely be described more than just perfect?
You know, I took a few minutes to ponder on the current situation that I'm facing. I've been through so many bullshits to keep up with all of them but sometimes I think I deserve at least a reward of appreciation for a change. Why can't they make me feel that I'm something instead of nothing?
You know, what is it that I want from them that I need it so badly?
A committed and supportive lover,
An understanding and dedicated best friend,
Limitless support from parents.
Have I've been doing all those things to you guys? I never stop coming and popping out there in your life. Giving boundless of what I have in me. I give everything of myself. So, it hurts when there is no reply from a mere single message. So, it hurts when you hide things from me. So, it hurts when you don't trust me. I'm tired you know. Just tired, of always being the bigger person in life. Always be the person who has to swallow it in for the better good.
Can I retire? Would I want to retire? If I don't want to, could I keep up to it? Should I give it a try? Right now, I can only imagine myself, sitting under a coconut tree watching as the sun sets and ends my pain and suffering. I'm tired. I really am. .
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