oldtoWN

It was a tiring day due to a small incident (will update on this later on) So when we meet up with Anna and May they decided to have dinner in Old Town at Melati Utama

Somehow our supposedly be ordinary dinner turned dramatic as we watched a customer freaked out right in front of us. While we were deciding on what to have for our dinner, we heard a loud quarrel between a very angry female customer and a male waiter.

But it didn’t last long, after few harsh-loud-angry tones, everything became quiet

We continued selecting our meal from the “order sheet” before passing it to the waiter. I raised up the “order sheet” high to get the waiter’s attention right in front, and out of the sudden a waitress grab the “order sheet” from my hand roughly from behind before continuing on collecting the menu from our table impolitely.

We talked about her attitude as she was very rude in serving us as customer but since the staff was having a rough time with a very unhappy customer, we thought to ourselves

“Nevermind lah”

Spyshot:

mom tried to calm her down but was rejected


she went to the counter smack the counter,waitress got scared


As we waited for our meal to be served, somehow tempers flare back up again and this time, quarrel got a lot louder, the F word was used, mom’s heart got broken in pieces, lost of dignity in front of everybody and most importantly,

the best combination of Bahasa Melayu and F word I ever heard!

So listen closely for;

"Engkau blardy fucking rude engkau tahu tak!!"

Meaning,

" you're blardy fucking rude you know!!"

I pity her mom Because she shouted at her mom, on her face right in front of strangers

Imagine the humiliation

Anyway I find it blardy-hilariously-entertaining to see the way she freak out on the waitress

Hari Raya

Forgive and Forget

For the past few days, I've been sending messages to the people that I used to have bad history with. Clearing things out you know, to actually make the first move to say sorry and place in hope of turning the leaf into new.

BUT

Somehow, I feel that these people don't deserve to be forgiven. Their actions are unforgivable. They pull the ugliness within me which bitters me. They crush what I believe in. They cross my line. They are like pain to my eyes.

AGAIN

I tell myself that, this hatred, this feeling of resentment, offer me no good. No point keeping it like an extra baggage.

SO

I use my lil old trick. I put it all in a box. Add wings on it.

THEN

I let it fly away. Reminding myself to be the bigger person in life. I pour my heart out. There's bits of it on the floor. I take whats left of it and rinse it under the cold water.

Makan DAY

Makan Day

I actually declared today to be my Malas Day since I woke up so late and I didn't have the mood to do anything besides lying on my comfy bed. I bangun pun cause I received a phone call from one of my childhood friend Edhuan. He asked me out since his leaving to Japan again 2moro. I met him only once ever since he got back, thanx to mid-term examsla. Steal me away from my friends. PFFT! No pain No gain right? anyhow, I immediately call my bestfriend Edah to teman me go 1utama since Edhuan craves for A&W waffles. Why? Apparently fast food at Japan is a big NO NO to muslims as they use pig oil. NO biggiela, so we were suppose to meet up at 1:30pm but as usual, being me + Edah, we reached 1u at 2:30pm. Luckily Edhuan totally cool about it :D

Edhuan ordered his waffle while Edah and I bought mozza burger each. After eating we went window shopping. Edhuan bought himself a pair of slippers. He uses F.O.S slippers as his toilet slippers......................... wth right? He said the stuff in Malaysia wayyyyyyyyy tooo cheap compared to Japan. Aishhh aku confirm takleh survive kat Jepun kot camni. Semua benda nak kena budget. with Edhuan, opens up a whole lot of weird stories about the people in Japan such as, there are a few ppl there who loves to steal panties and bras. What for? Ask them. Besides that, they also claim that if you drive 80 km/h while putting your hand out, the feel is actually the same as you touching breasts. Oh and another one, they also developed bras for men. I have no idea what for. (-.-") very disturbing right thinking abt it? lol.




Chilling Milling

Lepas hantar Edhuan balik, gi amik Syida, we went lepak at the curve. At first we makan at O'Brien, then we went to makan at Kenny's. I filled up myself with macaroni & cheese + Vanilla muffin + coleslaw + potato salad. Lepas tu we had to ciou cause Syida must be back home by 6:30pm. Bila kat rumah, tak sempat aku nak mandi, Edah called telling me shes coming over to my house. LOL. I love having friends over lepaking at my house chilling area. So as usual, we ended up jammin while webcaming with Hanis. OH! btw, we received Card Raya from Hanis all the way from Otago, New Zealand. Very sweet of her :) thanx babe!! OH OH! then i received a call from my close friend Aliph. So good to hear from him after sooo long. It seems that he is very busy with his sis' wedding preparations but all is well for him :)

Dipped our legs in e pond. CHILL gilerr :)

Syida join skali later and she brought her own made cheesecake and it was so delicious! I really love the moment. Just the three of us. Sing song, play guitar, web cam, video recording :D

Makan DAY

Makan Day

I actually declared today to be my Malas Day since I woke up so late and I didn't have the mood to do anything besides lying on my comfy bed. I bangun pun cause I received a phone call from one of my childhood friend Edhuan. He asked me out since his leaving to Japan again 2moro. I met him only once ever since he got back, thanx to mid-term examsla. Steal me away from my friends. PFFT! No pain No gain right? anyhow, I immediately call my bestfriend Edah to teman me go 1utama since Edhuan craves for A&W waffles. Why? Apparently fast food at Japan is a big NO NO to muslims as they use pig oil. NO biggiela, so we were suppose to meet up at 1:30pm but as usual, being me + Edah, we reached 1u at 2:30pm. Luckily Edhuan totally cool about it :D

Edhuan ordered his waffle while Edah and I bought mozza burger each. After eating we went window shopping. Edhuan bought himself a pair of slippers. He uses F.O.S slippers as his toilet slippers......................... wth right? He said the stuff in Malaysia wayyyyyyyyy tooo cheap compared to Japan. Aishhh aku confirm takleh survive kat Jepun kot camni. Semua benda nak kena budget. with Edhuan, opens up a whole lot of weird stories about the people in Japan such as, there are a few ppl there who loves to steal panties and bras. What for? Ask them. Besides that, they also claim that if you drive 80 km/h while putting your hand out, the feel is actually the same as you touching breasts. Oh and another one, they also developed bras for men. I have no idea what for. (-.-") very disturbing right thinking abt it? lol.




Chilling Milling

Lepas hantar Edhuan balik, gi amik Syida, we went lepak at the curve. At first we makan at O'Brien, then we went to makan at Kenny's. I filled up myself with macaroni & cheese + Vanilla muffin + coleslaw + potato salad. Lepas tu we had to ciou cause Syida must be back home by 6:30pm. Bila kat rumah, tak sempat aku nak mandi, Edah called telling me shes coming over to my house. LOL. I love having friends over lepaking at my house chilling area. So as usual, we ended up jammin while webcaming with Hanis. OH! btw, we received Card Raya from Hanis all the way from Otago, New Zealand. Very sweet of her :) thanx babe!! OH OH! then i received a call from my close friend Aliph. So good to hear from him after sooo long. It seems that he is very busy with his sis' wedding preparations but all is well for him :)

Dipped our legs in e pond. CHILL gilerr :)

Syida join skali later and she brought her own made cheesecake and it was so delicious! I really love the moment. Just the three of us. Sing song, play guitar, web cam, video recording :D

Makan DAY

Makan Day

I actually declared today to be my Malas Day since I woke up so late and I didn't have the mood to do anything besides lying on my comfy bed. I bangun pun cause I received a phone call from one of my childhood friend Edhuan. He asked me out since his leaving to Japan again 2moro. I met him only once ever since he got back, thanx to mid-term examsla. Steal me away from my friends. PFFT! No pain No gain right? anyhow, I immediately call my bestfriend Edah to teman me go 1utama since Edhuan craves for A&W waffles. Why? Apparently fast food at Japan is a big NO NO to muslims as they use pig oil. NO biggiela, so we were suppose to meet up at 1:30pm but as usual, being me + Edah, we reached 1u at 2:30pm. Luckily Edhuan totally cool about it :D

Edhuan ordered his waffle while Edah and I bought mozza burger each. After eating we went window shopping. Edhuan bought himself a pair of slippers. He uses F.O.S slippers as his toilet slippers......................... wth right? He said the stuff in Malaysia wayyyyyyyyy tooo cheap compared to Japan. Aishhh aku confirm takleh survive kat Jepun kot camni. Semua benda nak kena budget. with Edhuan, opens up a whole lot of weird stories about the people in Japan such as, there are a few ppl there who loves to steal panties and bras. What for? Ask them. Besides that, they also claim that if you drive 80 km/h while putting your hand out, the feel is actually the same as you touching breasts. Oh and another one, they also developed bras for men. I have no idea what for. (-.-") very disturbing right thinking abt it? lol.




Chilling Milling

Lepas hantar Edhuan balik, gi amik Syida, we went lepak at the curve. At first we makan at O'Brien, then we went to makan at Kenny's. I filled up myself with macaroni & cheese + Vanilla muffin + coleslaw + potato salad. Lepas tu we had to ciou cause Syida must be back home by 6:30pm. Bila kat rumah, tak sempat aku nak mandi, Edah called telling me shes coming over to my house. LOL. I love having friends over lepaking at my house chilling area. So as usual, we ended up jammin while webcaming with Hanis. OH! btw, we received Card Raya from Hanis all the way from Otago, New Zealand. Very sweet of her :) thanx babe!! OH OH! then i received a call from my close friend Aliph. So good to hear from him after sooo long. It seems that he is very busy with his sis' wedding preparations but all is well for him :)

Dipped our legs in e pond. CHILL gilerr :)

Syida join skali later and she brought her own made cheesecake and it was so delicious! I really love the moment. Just the three of us. Sing song, play guitar, web cam, video recording :D

ReMeMbEr

When there is a problem between friends, we talked about it cause most issues arises from lack of communication which could lead to misunderstanding and misinterpretation. Sometimes, more talk results in further complication version of the problem, it's just the same as when a virus gets immune to it's cure.

Let's say I happen to be the unlucky person that has to through that phase of life. But this virus didn't stop there, Oh no, it didn't want to let me go so easily. It wants to hit me so hard till I'm down on my knees begging for mercy. So this virus spread into backstabbing, untrue stories and involvement of a 3rd party. Ugly right? I know. When you're in anger, you tend to say things that you didn't mean to say right? As an example, earlier today at the pump station, this cashier didn't want to accept my money because it's wet. WTF right?! I got angry and snapped at him and went off. I regretted and embarrassed with my reaction to it. I felt so badddd. I went back to him and said sorry. shrugsss. Hopefully he'll forgive me! So anyways, I tried to save this so called friendship but I failed. Probably I didn't try hard enough but there is no degree of how hard or how easy you try right? I mean, there is no degree to a severity when somebody cheats on her/his partner right? light or heavy it is still considered as cheating.

I have to admit, I am pretty bumped by the fact that I lost the battle. It didn't even let me have a good closure. I'm not gonna point fingers. I'm not gonna argue. I wish I can say this but I only said "remember", couldn't finish saying it cause too malas to drown myself. So I'm taking this chance to finish what I wanted to say.............................

"Remember"

Not to remember me. I mean, of course I'll get hurt if I see you around and you didn't even smile because you've forgotten me."ouch!!" but I don't really mind that.

I might be all vivid and tainted in your eyes or maybe I'm just a dream or two by now. You said you can replace me easily. So I guess you'll be okay without me then.

All I'm hoping for is that you will remember the lessons that you had obtained through the whole period of our friendship. Use it wisely and hopefully it'll be a good use in your life :)

I forgive you for being cold and all that and I hope you'll forgive me too for all my mistakes. But if you don't want to it's okay. One day, I hope you will.

Fotress of Solitude

Fotress of Solitude

When life gets tangled up with too many conflicts with people, I tend to get so miserable. Hey, who doesn't right? Especially when it gets out of your hand, unreachable to control it any longer, and your mind gets sooooo messed up, that's the worst scenario that can ever happen. Oh right, not to forget the sleepless nights that you'll have and people would prolly not want to talk to you cause of your zombie/vampire looking face. The best immediate action that I would do is to sit down and think what the hell is going on. After that, I'll get up and take at least one step back from the whole mess, of course, I would prefer to take more than once obviously. Dengar mcm senang je kan? ambik satu langkah ke belakang. hahaha sounds funny. Yeah, it is easy but it will need a lot of courage to do that.

"The further you're away from trouble the better it is"

However, when I do that a lot, by all means I have the tendency to be away from the crowdlakan. In other words, alone. Ask yourself, "do you spend time alone?". Most of my friends said "No. It's like no life bro!!" As for me, you need time for yourself. You see, most of the time you're overwhelmed with your work, studies or things that dominate most of your time in life. So there will be at a point in life where you just need to stray away just a little bit to pull yourself back together and stabilize yourself. I believe that giving time for yourself is the answer that I could think of for that.

This is what I do for myself. read books.

Besides, I think that being alone is somehow related with the process of adulthood. Your family and friends can't and won't be there for you all the time. It is what adult is all about. I think. Nevertheless, giving yourself too much time pun tak bagus jugak. So you gotta manage between the both of them. Life is all about balance. The Yin & Yang. Try it. You'll be surprise with the result.

week...End

You have no idea how grumpy I was in the car but it ended right after when my dad hand me over the money for the weekend. Peace :D.Kaching $$$. I smell money coming in!! after that, I balik den continue with my beauty sleep. Simply woke up whatever time I want. Mandi ke tak. Makan ke tak. Clean up the room ke tak. Nobody cares. Who cares? I don't. hahahaha such a good time!!

Practically, It's just me, with my bed, and the house.......... well yeah....... lets exclude the maid to not spoil the whole story. So anyways, my besties decided to go for club hopping at Jalan Changkat that night. Since I've never been there so what the heck. Clubbing shall I go!

Love the dance floor

Honestly, at first I didn't feel like clubbing at all that night though. Don't know why. Just felt like staying at home in my warm blanket while reading books. Reluctantly I got up, showered, switched on my webcam with Miza since she decided to be my outfit advisor for the night. Tried on a few shirts and had dilemma between the purple and maroon. Finally I decided to go with the purple. I nearly doze off while waiting for them to pick me up lol. Punyala mengantok.Padahal tak buat pape pun satu hari hahaha

In the car, they asked me why I looked so tired and sleepy. I tried so hard to think what to answer them cause actually I didn't do anything at all for the entire day!! Had a pit stop at 7/11 and bought myself redbull while mineral water for the ladies. Getting into KL is sooo fucked tup. Especially at BB. Reminds me whyyyyyyyy i hate driving at KL and explains why I don't know shit the ways in KL hahahaha.

We went to MV. I was soooooooo impressed by the place. Not huge, not big, not fancy nor blinggy but the crowd.... fuuuh hot chix all around babeee.. And they are all adults, not those kids who goes to places like M.O.S or Heritage, no offence. I nearly tried alcohol at that time but amazingly I didn't. I'm so proud of my will power :) I had so much fun dancingggg especially when there were girls bumming their asses behind me hohohohoho prolly sempit kot, wish they were actually trying to flirt with me ;p and the song selection were good. Sampai rumah at 4am. Terus pengsan right after I hold my pillows.

Aiman and Hers... forever (the "gatal's kazen")

Woke up at 2.oopm today. Received few calls and texts, invitation to go out but I kindly rejected em. I just feel like staying at home :D So I did. Their flight at 11.00pm so I should make my move at 10.30pm but before that, I'll be at Centre Point chilling with friends. That sums my weekend pretty much. I danced, had fun, read books, sleep a lot, eat less, and stayed at home more.

What about yours?

be..NiCE

BE NICE

I'm happy. Ecstatic. Excited.

Why?

Because what I believed in or should I say, my principles of life bare me fruits finally. Have you ever wonder why we live in a cruel world? one possible answer could be, because people never learn to start being nice first and see no point doing so when ownself not being treated right. Some people believe in karma, what comes around goes around. Do you actually believe that whatever bad things that you do will get back at you later in life? Maybe, possibly, probably but I don't think so, it could occur in the after-life too you know.

As for me,


I believe that being nice is not a waste of money, energy and time. I mean, what do you have to lose by doing so? Unless you do it with the hope of getting something back in returnlah. Punyalah tak ikhlas. Anyhow, I'm not trying to say that I'm an Angel, poyo sungguh but I mean, I try to be nice as much as possiblelah, I try to be polite as I could and I try my best not to use the word "hate" at all. It's such a strong word. If you do use it against people, your friends, family, anyone, I advise you to stop. You don't use it on people who don't deserve it. Again, being nice doesn't mean your life will be all thathappie mappie like the kids favourite dinasour toon Barney & friends, sometimes I do have people walk all over me. Naah, I couldn't be bothered to complain about it because I know HE is watching and I know what I'm doing is far greater than what I have to sacrifice. No pain no gain right ?I honestly think that the world needs more people with that kind of mentality. Be nice, polite, gentle,respectful. To care about each other.

I don't know what I'm talking about! but all I can say is, just be nicelah. It's something that you MUST have in you

BLAMe

BLAME

I used to be a child that blames others at every single thing that went wrong in life. Not getting good grades in exams, blame teacher for setting the paper too difficult. Not good in badminton, blame the coach for being sooo bad at teaching. Not close to friends and family,blame the internet. Not being able to buy some stuff, blame the dad. Fell in the drain, blame the authorities for their recklessness GOSH!! Damn, emo rite? hahaha but now when I think about it kan, "blame"is a really bad bad bad word. Not in the meaning of an insult but as for an excuse to run away. Usually people would blame somebody or something else for their mistakes, just to prove others that they are innocent and for the sake of making themselves feel much better from the whole situation. In other words, being in denial.

Lets take an examplelah ok. Why people blame parents when they come across a very rude or indecent person? Nampak je perempuan merokok "ishh... mak ayah dia tak kesah ke?" apa2 jela yang people trash talk, parents would be the first person to be blamed. It could be true. Since they are the people who's responsible in shaping their children's inner self. Couldn't agree more about that. But can you just simply put it that way? Can you?

As for me, I can't. I think that no matter how rude or indecent or disrespectable that person can be, it's no one's fault but them. No one else but themselves. Because, whatever actions that you do, it's your call. No one else. The outcome of your decisions is for you to deal with. Not anyone else. I'm not saying that people should NEVERblame on others but It would be nice if everybody can consider inlooking within themselves first before happily pointing fingers on others. That's all. What do you think John's Deciphers? What say you

Place in MY HEART

Aishh penatnye saya. I just finish typing out a draft copy of a tenancy agreement for my mom. She actually force me to type out a freaking 3 pages long of bosaness( tenant,landlord,blabla) sungguh bosan I'm telling you. I malas delay my work so I kinda habiskan already. Thank God.

I was suppose to go out with Farhan today but dunno what happenlah. Prolly he is not feeling very well since he texted me yday his feeling a bit feverish. It's the weather I'm telling you. Hot and Hazy. The best combination of disaster to health. From what I heard, It'll go on for 3 months. So brace yourself Malaysians! Drink more H20 water :)

Today, I went for branch with my bestest buddies Hanis & Syahida at 12.30pmish (branchla sangat) Punyala malas all of us to bangun. I bangun pun cause my maid wanted to mop and vacuum my room.

Future Dentist

We ate at dunno whats the place called already at 1utama. Pretty goodlah. I ate pasta and it cost me only for Rm8.99. Cheap right? I know...! I thought I should spend my money wisely for today since I bought myself this so hot Koreanish bag from SEED and Aliph loves it a lot. Nasib dia tak beli sama lol, but actually he wants it too at the end he didnt. Such a prideful child :p 

Future Security Software Analyst

Moving on, after branch I went to pick clothes from the Laundry shop. Since most of Zara's goods kena dry clean so dengan malasnye had to send them to the Laundry shop. It costs me a total of Rm 100 ok! blardy hell mahal kot. I sed to the owner of the shop "pandai tol you buat business eh auntie lol" it's ok. I bet she wouldnt dare say anything bad.

Jeremy Quah, Caryn Koh, Edhuan Ismail

After that, I pegi amik Sleng then met WyJin at Taman Mayang field. FYI 5 years ago, WyJin and I carved our names on a tree at the field. I know it's wrong but I dunno wth I was thinking at that timelah. Simply sedap hati je vandalise the tree hahaha. Surprisingly it's still there!! It's been like......... 5 yearsss 5 years already and I still remember vividly on that day. Time really flies huh.

Future Psychologyst 

I hate goodbyes. I'm bad at it. So I hate it. It's been good meeting the both of them again. They were like my pillars of strength back then in highschool and still standing strong :) Although all of us follows our own different paths or roads but we always attempt to reach for each other regardless what shithole we're in. I love u guys and you will always always have a place in my heart.

Are You?

Things do not stay the way it is. Nothing is. As time goes, slowly people change.

In what sense? Anything, appearance, habits, the way they speak, attitude wise and etc.

Great alteration will result in immense change.

We choose the people that we want to be friends with. If they change, would they still be “that” friend worth spending our time with? So basically what can I say here is nothing last forever right? But why is there such thing as Friends Forever? Eternal Love? Maybe we can say that when only the “change” does not occur, but can we avoid it? It is apart of life after all.

Here I am blogging about friends of mine which already changed till I don’t feel comfortable to be with them while neglecting the fact that I my

Sorry

I understand that there are some problems and I am not too blind to know all the pain you kept inside you even though you might not show. If I can apologize for being wrong then it’s just a shame on me I’ll be the reason for your pain and you can put the blame on me.

Into each life there comes a time when you must pay your lovers' dues. I know I was wrong for treating you the way I did but I have so much on my mind. I didn’t know where you fit in and I thought I already said that to you. If I could do it all over again, I’ll never let you get your ways, I'll never let you move into me.

I’m sorry that I ever did it to you, that I ever made you cry. 

Lastly, I'm sorry that I can't break down in tears.

Good vs Bad

What is good? What is bad?

Each individual believe in their own perspective. I have friends who smokes. Straight-A Student. In the Dean's list. I have friends who drinks like mad at the same time friends that never fails to be there for me when I'm in need of help. Some friends do drugs but willing to go thru trouble for me. Some of them do things that you could not even imagine.

Today, I followed some of my friends to smoke. I look at each of them. All of them with no doubt are nice people, down to earth that I always have respect for. But why some people judge smokers so terribly? Nampak orang smoke je, terus label budak jahat. Maybe MOST of smokers are bad but isn't what you're doing is generalize? Is it fair for you to think that way? Why people stereotype? It's the soceity isnt it? The society pictures a good man with a good features, fair, tall, nice, kind bla bla. So what about some people that does not have those? Bad people?

For me, the most important question is, Who are you to judge?

When someone says that I'm selfish, cheater, jerk. I'll get soooo badly hurt. Not because of them, not because of the words. But because of how untrue it is. People judge without knowing the truth. Without trying to understand. Without listening. I hate being judged for things thats not right.

Sometimes I feel tired of being me. I feel like lettting myself loose. I'm so sick of worrying what people might think of me. Like it or not, we're living in a cruel world. Call me cheater call me liar call me selfish call me a bitch call me watever you want after this cause I won't feel hurt hearing it since I'm being one.

Foolish

After feeling numb from reading FIN 202, I decided to stop for awhile. So I sit here, in front of my laptop at 1.12am in the morning feeling nothing.

Actually, I don't feel like updating my blog at all today thus I went on reading my previous posts that I wrote wayy long time ago. Some of them filled with happiness but MOST of them loaded with emo shit. hahahaha. But something caught my attention though. Particularly the part when I laughed while reading almost all of the previous posts.

I used to be so emotional and sensitive at any single shit that moves around me(still am? hahaha) I remember those moments of break ups, make ups, hook ups, brain breaking, nerve wrecking, heart aching jiffy. I remember how depressed I was during those times. At one point of time I thought that I wasn't strong enough to live through all of it. Sad case right? Gudness, i used to be such a sad child! hahaha

But hey, look at me now. You see, I always tell my friends and remind myself that what ever problems that you may have, just be strong and hold on for awhile cause when the clouds go away and thesun comes in, you'll be okay. By the time it's all over, you look back then you'll be laughing at yourself and would think how silly you can be. I'm proud to say that I've grown up. I'm over all this small petty shit. ...... so should you.

Communism

When they want C*** back home and why they support LTTE, they has been said to spark the fire. Is that true?

Most probably it is but the MALAY!!!! need to think, why they keep asking for this.

They want us to think a bit. Take a look at North Korea, even they are communist country but still they can build missile, China PR can be one of the powerful nation on earth and for LTTE, they still can build light war planes even they did not have resources.

Look ! We say they are the enemies but what they achieve compared to us? Think ? If we said democracy is the best for us but why we can't be like Singapore and why some does not want Islam to rule, look at Iran, they can build missiles too...!

DO NOT INTERPRATE LITERLARY  
 

Law of the "JUNGLE"

don't u understand?

What happened today during the Opening of Perak State Legislative Assembly can be describe as Meeting in the JUNGLE.

The Opposition had adhered to the rule of the jungle, said Mentri Besar Datuk Seri Dr Zambry Abd Kadir of the chaos at the Perak State Assembly sitting Thursday. (TheStar Online)

The People's Representatives creates a lots of havoc. Why can this happen? This country and the state have a law and it is above everything so they need to respect and obey the law.

take him AWAY.....!

visit to PUTRAJAYA

I seldom going outside or to some interesting places by myself expect being invited or accompanied by my friends (some of the reason is for safety of course). This time I had a spare time to go to Putrajaya and take some of interesting near dawn and night pictures of this beautiful and ‘intelligent’ city of Putrajaya.

conTENMENt

So I sit here, in front of my laptop in the morning, feeling happy.


Not that kind of “Oh, life is going so well!” happiness, but I do feel content,
whole and yes, happy.


There’s nothing particularly interesting happening to me; I’m not winning awards,
I still haven’t had my 15-minutes of fame and I didn’t have the light of fireworks in me.

But I believe the past four months when I worked through my insecurities, and
was depressed for most of it, I learned how to be happy with myself, and to
make peace with the way things are.


I know that possibly, this feeling of contentment and personal happiness will
expire sooner or later, and again, I’d be overwhelmed with pressures to
compete, and to out-do my peers, y’know, keep up with the rest of the world by
pursuing goals that probably doesn’t satisfy me as much as I thought it would…


But I’ve learned that that’s okay - otherwise, how else will we get pushed to
try things we’ve never done before? Or to make our lives a little difficult,
for some kind of belief in entitlement and a boost for our ego and
self-confidence?


But till that day comes, I’m going to enjoy my moment of happiness; I’m
mentally photographing every smile, recording every conversation and taking it
all in; so that someday, in my moments of un-happiness, I know I can always
somehow extract this moment out of my mind, and feel how I feel today, right
now; happy.


I think that music makes it all the much easier to remember moments; and as of
right now, I’m listening to my all-time favourite, Menghapus Jejakmu (or,
’Erasing Your Footsteps’ in English?) by Indonesian band, Peterpan.


It’s a beautiful song, about letting go, and reminding us that no matter what
sort of bullshit happens, no matter which asshole you run into, they’re not the
cause of your ‘end of the world’. Life goes on…and it only gets better!



Even the moon becomes a beauty when darkness surrounds it


I know I must sound annoyingly positive and cheery, like an episode of Barney’s
or that awful children’s TV show, Teletubbies, but I shared my insecurities, my
lowest points recently, and it’s only fair that when I am happy, I can share
that freely as well, without having to worry if somehow, I may be subconsciously trying to prove anything but what I choose to write about..this
is the truth, whether you like it or not. Take a moment. Think about it.

SATISfaction !

It feels so good when the truth is out especially when your heart being unease all the time. Even though it's hurtful to know it but I'm not angry. Maybe cause I already know that it's a lie and thank goodness I'm an easy person to get over it, just press the "delete" button.

Like I said, if you're my friends I'll let you walk all over me, make fun of me, laugh with me, but if you crosses the line, It's hard for me to take you back in. That's just how it is.

- Forgive and Forget -

I do forgive you and too forget you

just letting go some STEAM.......!!

unless you in my shoes, by then u will know,

it is not easy as it might sound.

it is not as fun as you would like to think so.

the time i spent with myself is far more less compared with the time I'm spending it with you.

at times, its really hard to even send you a message or making a personal call.

it does not means that I'm not thinking of you.

it does not means that a night without spending time with you,

simply means you're not important anymore.

if you truly understand like what you said,

 you wont be doubting me like what you wrote out

Another by-election

My GOD, BN will face another by-election in Perak as the Bukit Gantang Member of Parliament from PAS, Roslan Shaharum, died of a heart attack on Monday morning. This is the 3rd by-election after the General Election last March.

Can BN stand the change to win this seat? Well maybe PAS can win this seat but it is not impossible for BN to grab this seat as they can exploite regarding Pakatan Rakyat Government.

Well that's for now. See u again.

Chaos in MaLaySia

It looks like our political situation is in chaos as the government of Pakatan Rakyat in Perak was toppled as their 3 members of state legislative assembly choose their own way.

As the former Pakatan Rakyat Menteri Besar doesn't want to quit and the new Menteri Besar has sworn in, the political turmoil is in a great disaster. Street protest were held all over the state and to some extent in front of Ampang Jaya Police station if i not mistaken.


This is my view why Sultan of Perak doesn't want the state to have a new election. After the General Election last year in March, DAP has won many seats, next come the PKR and lastly only 6 seats was won by PAS. When the Sultan pick PAS candidate to lead the State, what we can see is that D

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AP is not in favour with that. As time goes by, DAP general assembly was held and they managed to persuade some "famous" MALAYS to join them. Indeed, the MALAY had won the deputy president of DAP (please correct me if WRONG).

So, there was a plan to make the new elected deputy president of DAP as Menteri Besar Perak. Yet, the time is not right. Now, when the Pakatan Rakyat Government was toppled, they the PAS, PKR and especially DAP wanted the SULTAN to consent for the new STATE ELECTION.

In my point of view, there should not be a new STATE ELECTION as it can put the MALAY RIGHTS and COMMUNITY in great danger.

the BIRD

I look, I smile, I don't think this is working. . . Being the bigger person in life. Always being called when needed. My hands are hurting. Thought of letting it go. But hey, hold on. I smile again.

The Bird don't wanna stay any longer,
Finding his way out with so much desire,
He wants to forget his ugliness forever,
So let The Bird leave with no pressure.

Now The Bird has flown away freely,
He has everything but feels lonely,
Thus, he gave it another try,
Finally two birds flying in the sky.

another By-ELECTIONS

"He officially submitted the “resignation letters” of Behrang assemblyman Jamaluddin Mat Radzi and Changkat Jering assemblyman Mohd Osman Mohd Jailu so that by-elections can be called for the two seats within 60 days." taken from thestar online.

So if the news is true, there will be another by-elections. Can Barisan Nasional (Alliance) face with another by-election? If we look back at the recent by-elections, it seems like the Alliance could not afford to face another by-election. For example, take a look at the Kuala Terengganu by-election where Alliance had lost with 2000's majority. What a shame. Seems like the political tsunami is still on.

Why can this happend? Why Alliance could not attrack the voters or it is only the game play of the Pakatan Rakyat (PR). Maybe this is the way for the PR to topple down the government, just wait and see.

If we look from a different perspective, the Alliance could not capture Selangor and Penang. When we watch tvX. there always a slot where they try to convince the citizens that the present government is weak. BUT they have choose the wrong strategy. The Alliance maybe capture Perak and Kedah in the next General Election.


thats all for now
BYE-BYE

Solar Eclipse

Taken during my visit to XXX on 26th January 2009